Been a while, I know 🙂
This is the time of the year when I feel I need to look back and see what has been going on, and look forward to what I can do better.
The year of the bloom (aka 2017) has been a truly remarkable year for me, during which I started driving in the UK (I have a car named Jesse), moved house to a smaller town, moved jobs (premanant role instead of contracting), gained few friends, bonded strongly with a very few, reconnected to old ones, lost a few, and made few enemies as well !!
Made 2 videos which were published throughout Vodafone for TDOV about my transition:
Both stirred lots of reactions; positive, negative.
But by far, this is the the worst I got from someone who was sacked shortly after I left VF Egypt after a severe misconduct from his side towards his line manager !!
But mostly and most remarkably is that I think I’m done with my transition; a multi year project which started early 2014, and gained momentum over the months and years. And now I believe I’m done.
During the year of the bloom (2017), I managed to achieve more than my wildest dreams. And I can say that I actually managed to live to the values and guidelines I put for myself during 2017, and completely debt-free. YaaaaaY 🙂
Now with my transition behind my back, what’s left is to live on the rest of my life 🙂
There has been two things/people that were haunting me:
- my 2nd ex, and how resentful I am for every moment I lived with her, the amount of love I had for her, the level of my stupidity, OMG !!
- my previous therapist in Egypt, and how i trusted her, and let her partially take control over some aspects of my life !!
If either of those was still in my life, I wouldn’t have even scratched the surface of what I accomplished to date. Both promoted fear, thrived on controling and manipulating.
What I need to let go, is my sense of guilt that I let those into my life and ignoring the signs.
What I need to let go, is my urge to write/talk to them telling them who wrong they were about me. But if there’s one thing that I learned, it’s that the only way to win over a narsassict, is not to engage at all !!!
So the only way forward for me is to forgive myself, and to let go.
There was a quote from Ice Age (you must let go of the past to have a future) ❤ ❤
I’m blessed 🙂
PS. Looks like my Americian-ish accent is fading away rapidly, and being replaced by a west London kind of an accent 😀