Reflections on the year of the Bloom (aka 2017)

 

Hey there,

Been a while, I know 🙂

This is the time of the year when I feel I need to look back and see what has been going on, and look forward to what I can do better.

The year of the bloom (aka 2017) has been a truly remarkable year for me, during which I started driving in the UK (I have a car named Jesse), moved house to a smaller town, moved jobs (premanant role instead of contracting), gained few friends, bonded strongly with a very few, reconnected to old ones, lost a few, and made few enemies as well !!

Made 2 videos which were published throughout Vodafone for TDOV about my transition:

Both stirred lots of reactions; positive, negative.

But by far, this is the the worst I got from someone who was sacked shortly after I left VF Egypt after a severe misconduct from his side towards his line manager !!

Linkedin Response

But mostly and most remarkably is that I think I’m done with my transition; a multi year project which started early 2014, and gained momentum over the months and years. And now I believe I’m done.

During the year of the bloom (2017), I managed to achieve more than my wildest dreams. And I can say that I actually managed to live to the values and guidelines I put for myself during 2017, and completely debt-free. YaaaaaY 🙂

Now with my transition behind my back, what’s left is to live on the rest of my life 🙂

There has been two things/people that were haunting me:

  • my 2nd ex, and how resentful I am for every moment I lived with her, the amount of love I had for her, the level of my stupidity, OMG !!
  • my previous therapist in Egypt, and how i trusted her, and let her partially take control over some aspects of my life !!

If either of those was still in my life, I wouldn’t have even scratched the surface of what I accomplished to date. Both promoted fear, thrived on controling and manipulating.

What I need to let go, is my sense of guilt that I let those into my life and ignoring the signs.

What I need to let go, is my urge to write/talk to them telling them who wrong they were about me. But if there’s one thing that I learned, it’s that the only way to win over a narsassict, is not to engage at all !!!

So the only way forward for me is to forgive myself, and to let go.

There was a quote from Ice Age (you must let go of the past to have a future) ❤ ❤

I’m blessed 🙂

Love,

Nour

PS. Looks like my Americian-ish accent is fading away rapidly, and being replaced by a west London kind of an accent 😀

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One thought on “Reflections on the year of the Bloom (aka 2017)

  1. Letting go of the past is so hard but so essential if we are to progress. So wonderful to hear that life is good for you now. Always reflect on the positives.

    Michelle x

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